I do what I do not want to do!

So I have been struggling a bit recently. So much is going on in my head and heart that I know does not honour and glorify my God, and I hate that! I get caught up in these cycles where I just get frustrated at myself for doing stupid things that only seek to make myself look better or are totally out of my own selfishness and no doubt upset or hurt others. I get annoyed at myself and wish I could change so at that point I no longer attempt to deal with the situation, I just get caught up in feeling rubbish about myself.
So in my personal time with God at the moment I am reading Romans, a great book that continual reminds of you of the wonder of the gospel of Christ. I was reading Romans 7 this morning and it just seemed to make sense, Paul hit the nail on the head with this one!

"For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do-this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is the sin living in me that does it.
So I find this law at work: although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this bidy of death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!." (Romans 7:18-25)

The devil so often encourages us to get caught up in this cycle so that we forget what it truely means to be saved. It is Jesus who rescues us from the pit of destruction. God's grace was displayed by Jesus on the cross. It is that grace which saves me from the wretched person that I am and that Paul was. It is that grace which allows me to serve my awesome and almighty God. It is that grace in which I now stand free from the chains of sin that bound me and look ahead instead to the glorious hope I have through Jesus! AMEN!